Some of the coolest dreams that ever came true
weren’t dreams at all,
but standards that simply
True story – Did I go somewhere in my dreams OR was visited? Woke at 430. The rain was spilling, wind howling and I was not ready to rise.
Thoughts ran and they too, spilled and howled like the wind and rain. I nodded off to re-wake at 8 from a sleep. Which had a more illuminating than refreshing effect.
I dreamt I held a babe. As I looked into their eyes I saw within their pupils images. Eyes became like screens as snapshots of my past, me as a child and beyond, to my present and future (?) flashed like a random slideshow. I watched feeling – not scared but mesmerized, awestruck.
The child disappeared. I found myself reclining into a sofa talking with a group of people (unkown to me) when a photographer appeared and snapped a pic for – as they put it – archives.
Then another appeared and asked, “If you could have anything right now, what would it be?” I replied, “To continue living my fulfilled life.”
Then I woke up.
I am not about to analyze this right now, but I saw stuff – images of events I cannot explain yet I know to be true.
Follow your dreams.
Let them reside within you.
And their foundation will be like tree roots
spreading deep and wide into the earth.
And your dreams will grow and branch out reaching high into the sky .
And the branches will blossom and bear you fruit
and bless the lives of others -
such is the magic of dreams.
“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
“Why do we have to listen to our heart?” asked the boy.
“Because where ever your heart is that’s where you will find your treasure,” was the reply.
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It Starts with the New Year
As I geared up for the Chinese New Year I took time out to contemplate where I am at and what I want to bring into my life. It is somewhat of a tradition for a collective group of friends (and myself) to celebrate New year (Chinese or Western) with a dinner party and lists of – now I am going out on a limb here and WILL NOT use RESOLUTION – (and it is not just semantics) of goals, intent, affirmation of what we wanted to manifest…and more than that … what we are prepared to do to actualise that manifestation.
So where was I, yes the tradition, so the dinner party is a celebration of sorts, of our friendship, our ability to keep our tradition, and the opportunity to share our richest dreams, our fears, our possibilities and achievements. We review the list from the previous year and tick off that which we have manifested. We share our new list and congratulate each other for achievements and goals. Over the years we have gathered momentum … there is power in collective consciousness, creative affirmation, sharing with like minded others, and of course being willing to achieve what we affirm through all of the above along with doing something about it.
Hopping back to the opening sentence (pardon the pun, it is the year of the Rabbit )
As I gear up for the Chinese New Year I took time out to contemplate where I am at and what I want to bring into my life. And with that is a reflection upon the past 2 years…
2009 – Endings and Learning to Fly
2009 was a tumultuous year. Plenty of endings – work, place of residence, old friendships – along with those categories of endings goes with it – an ending of what was considered my normal routine, thought processes, conversations and a way of being – that is to say – who I though I was and where I was heading. It was a year of tears, fears and heaps of support from loved ones. Oh and a couple of leaps of faith.
Simply I could not believe my life was transforming with such speed. I wanted to yell out to the universe – whoa …. Slow down! In fact I think I did, all too ungraciously a couple of times. Be careful what you wish for they say (whoever they are?) well I wished and affirmed and the higher part of me was pumped up and ready to fly. In fact I want to rephrase that – remember (as opposed to be careful) what you wish for seems more appropriate for me. So anyway, all my wishes and aspirations and dreams were pushing themselves through the door. And I simply had to acquiesce, surrender and allow it to happen – gracefully – in gratitude and appreciation – and so I opened up my arms and said yes…YES!
And so, 2009 found its closure and so did I. Deborah had mastered the art of leap of faith, faced the abyss and surrendered to my new life. The one that had sat in the wings … drawing me closer.
2010 – New Beginnings
2010 shifted up a notch and I could see the thread of that new beginning or that new door – the one everyone reminded me of, sometimes a tad too often. You know the prompts … the, “oh well when one door closes …” which I might confess was of little comfort when feeling as though I was being thrown from a cliff edge into (?) BUT, like all adages of old, there is more than a thread of wisdom and indeed, many doors opened. And the more I embraced this new life – the more doors opened, and with momentum, they flew open.
So 2010 saw me shift from endings into new beginnings. I began to step more fully into who I am meant to be, fulfilling my dreams and living aligned to my spirit. Yet, there was still a way to go as I learned to walk a new walk. I fell over a few times but then picked myself up, dusted off the fear, anxiety and doubt and proceeded forward. I learned to stay firm in my faith and true to myself. And to appreciate a bunch of people who partook of this journey (from the wings) and whilst they may not have known where or if I was going to fall, had the cushions ready. Thanks for telling me I inspired – you inspired me!
There were still a couple of endings, and these as I discovered, were more about what I had attempted to hang onto. And that doesn’t work (as I discovered) – hey try leaping in faith from a height weighted down by stuff you just wont let go of has undesirable effects. So I let those things end too, and much more gracefully than I had in the past.
2011 – Ready to Shine
2011, yep my year, my year that is to BE – I see the rewards of the seeds I have sown. Those very seeds that I nurtured with love, commitment, passion, pro-active strategy and honour. Yes, published author and preparing for my book launch. I know there are other jewels to come and I open my arms ready to embrace them. I have mastered the leap with faith – with letting go and surrendering to the process – an unequivocal belief in my dreams and in me – remembering what is important – loving myself enough to want and dream for more – and with gratitude everyday for the abundance in my life.
Roll on 2011, I am here!
Right now for the moment…
I am living my dream life. The life I aspired to, the life I have desired. It has taken many leaps of faith and I am an expert on leaping from a grand height into what may appear to be an empty space. I have relinquished old habits, routines, structures, thoughts and fears – all of which no longer serve or enhanced my life. A job of 7 years went with it, a home of 8 years too and some friendships which I mourned and then let go in love and appreciation.
There are days when the clouds loom, a little too closely; yes I too can be besieged by a fair share of anxieties, fears, and the like. And I remain true to my ability to see the silver lining. I have made my fair share of faux pas and some classic choices which led me into some real pearlers of situations. And through it all I discovered more about who I am, who I am in relation to other people and situations and who I am in relation to myself.
My experiences in life make me a better person not a bitter person. I may feel like chucking in a few bad hair days into my week, but I always come back to my centre, my divinity and remain true to my faith – I love those silver linings!
I looked the naysayers in the face – this of course included the one in my head, you know the one… dear old doubt – and forged ahead.
I live my dream and continue to live it each day and it grows richer and fuller with more of what I love and desire. I started out with trembling legs and tentative steps and now I run into the wind and it is glorious.
Dedicated to that bunch of people – you know who you are